Owning It

So I realize that my weight loss journey really started after my first ever race, a 5k in October of 2009. The next day I started my first blog and used it as a way to chronicle my weight loss journey and road to my first half marathon.

It has been 2.5 years since all of that started, in those 2.5 years I have run that first half marathon... and 9 more, 2 full marathons, countless other road races, got married, bought a house, lost the 35lbs I was carrying around, and now I have gained 15 of it back. I am not proud of that last statement, but I got myself into it, and now I am getting myself out.

I need some accountability, some motivation, and mostly, just another place to be honest about the journey and the struggles.


Also, I am in a spot trying to figure out how to balance running and crossfit. I started crossfit 7 weeks ago, and I love it, but it wears my body down and I have found my running slipping tremendously: see 15 lb weight gain. I was a little burnt out on running when I started crossfit, but I feeling good again, and am dying to see how to balance the two, and the rest of my fitness interests.


Goal: lose the 15lbs I have managed to gain back
Plan: Quit eating like shit and walk away from the wine.

While a lighter workout schedule has certainly contributed a little bit, the main culprit of this weight re-gain has been diet. I have been drinking more frequently, eating out with John more, ignoring the concept of portion control, etc. etc. etc. Bottom line, quit boozing, eat your veggies, stop bitching. If you want to be skinny, put in the work and discipline to be skinny. All of your pretty new wine glasses really are not an excuse to polish off several bottles of wine per week. The glasses will still be pretty if you fill them with seltzer instead.

In the spirit of accountability, I am going back to counting calories, and trying to also be accountable here with regards to what I'm eating. I'm far from perfect, so expect to see a good amount of slip ups, but hopefully I can really make this a focus, it makes such a difference.

Goal: Find a plan and balance to accomodate all of the workouts I want to do so that my fitness goals and fitness do not suffer
Plan: Running x4, Crossfit x5, spinning x2

Basically, 2 a day workouts are the goal, and as I *plan* to ramp my running mileage back up in the fall for a few longer distance races, I will either have to hope that crossfit doesn't kill me as much by that point, or I will have to scale down the CF intensity during that period. I am really committed to these 3 activities, I think they are a really balanced combination, and I think they will all complement each other to make me stronger overall at each 'sport'.


Goal: 5 unassisted unbroken pull ups
Plan: Crossfit x5

This is my big goal, as simple minded and easy as it seems. I am getting super close to 1 pull-up now, so hopefully before the end of the year :)



So here it is, my ramblings of what I've sucked at, what I'm trying to do better. And even though no one is reading this, I am hoping that giving myself a place to be accountable will force me to be accountable and take control of my bad decisions and hopefully make better ones.